I hope you understand

i guess i just need to come to terms with that fact that i have no (un)common sense.

i don’t know how to weave words in a way where you’ll understand what i’m trying to say. and really the root of the problem is: i don’t think.

i feel.

&&feelings are different than words.

feelings come from magic. only it’s notmagic. it’s science and it feels like magic because it’s so (un)real.

some people know how to say their feelings… but when they do that, their feelings aren’t really feelings anymore… the somepeople are really thinking about what a feeling is to them (always masking feelings by thoughts).

so somepeople don’t know how to really feel.

and i guess since i don’t know how to explain…that means i don’t really have any thoughts so all i can do is walk around feeling all over the place and it’s just dreadful.

looking at the stars and i’m in fucking tears.

so if you think too much and you need help feeling i’m always here.

i’ll show you how to do it,

but i’ll never be able to tell you how.

(i’ll never write you. i’ll never call you. i don’t really want to talk to you.)

so i guess what i’m trying to say is that i’m over here in this big empty but full house feeling through life and i’m always but never here if you want some company?